Yesterday Mistress and I clashed over what might seem like a trivial thing to others but was important to me at the time.
I always let Mistress know how I think about silly girls walking with bells around so everybody can hear them coming from miles away. That opinion is pretty explicit:
I hate it when another of those bimbos comes walking by, showing off what a good slave she is with her bells. She's not because she bothers people with that irritating jingle around her ankles. So the best I give someone like that is a cold look and the thought: "How pathetic".No surprise that I refuse to have something like that around my own ankle, neck or anywhere else?
Yesterday turned out a little different though. With some new clothes I bought, there were two anklets with of course the mandatory bells and of course the default as loud as can be. I didn't even bother to look if perhaps the bells could be disabled (i knew they could) but instead simply removed the scripts and sound file. Problem solved... ?
Well no, it was not because as soon as I started moving again, there was another kind of jingle. Louder even than the ones I had on before. My collar? Yup yup... I thought I removed those scripts long ago from it. I obviously did not and while I was cursing about some designers and removing the bells of the anklets, Mistress made a quick joke by enabling the bells in my collar.
When I started to walk again and heard the sound, I didn't ask or discuss anything. I was still way too pissed off to do so. Instead I simply deleted script and sound file of the collar. I thought it had not worked so I took my collar off, put it on the ground and looked in it there. Of course Mistress noticed what I was planning to do and ordered me not to do it. When I looked in it the script was already gone though so her warning came too late.
Since I never lie to her (at least not that I know), it hurt when she did not believe me and thought I had deliberately ignored her. Even if I told her I was not able to help it anymore at the time of the order. BTW... I have to say here that it would not have made a big difference because at that moment I would have ignored her anyway and still would have deleted the script. But I would also have been honest about it and simply accept any discipline coming my way.
Mistress turned her back to me and I was told, I could come back at the moment I had fixed it back in it's old state. Now that would have been harsh for both of us because:
- I have no idea where to get that version of the script back;
- I simply don't want that script in something I wear so I will never put it back anyway
So that would mean I would never be able to come back at her feet.
I was kinda dumbfounded that I was not believed. Way more than that Mistress was mad at me. I was mad at her too for crossing a hard limit, even if it was meant in fun. It resulted in a real bitchy argument the next few minutes. Eventually we settled it. Both, I think with a feeling of not being satisfied with the outcome.
When looking back at it we might both have made some mistakes here:
- I did not listen to Mistress and acted before she even had a chance to undo what was meant as fun for her.
- On the other hand... Mistress could have known that breaking a hard limit is never seen as fun for the receiving party.
Anyway... I hope we both learned from it.
Love,Kyla
