In the place where Mistress and I love to play and be together, I am called various things alternating between: "nice", "bitchy", "that mad woman" etcetera. It all depends on who interacts with me and if they are able to see behind the roleplay-layer I have around me.
That layer is often not the nicest. I am not there to be the sweetest person out there and often I do things I would not even dream about doing elsewhere. But hey, it's roleplay and those who can't stand the heat should not stand too close to the fire.
Having said that, I come to a point where it is hard for me to roleplay that nasty person. At times, Mistress likes to run around as prey there simply for the fun of being chased. The roleplay part that comes with it is less desirable to her somehow as she is totally dominant. Good for her then that she is able to outrun most. Most of the time she is not able to outrun me though and basically, she only runs for me anyway.
So instead of releasing her right away, we decided to roleplay switching on each other there for a while. We have done so before in the past but this time I decided to push a bit further to see how far I could go. Well, I am able to be dominant also to her if needed.
Thing is... I totally don't enjoy it because it feels not natural with Miss. She is simply not submitting to what is said and done and I hurt myself with every next move I make. Not that I won't make them. I'm stubborn enough to follow up all the way till the end if needed but enjoying it is another thing.
So we decided to turn things around quickly again and I was at her feet once more: Unable to speak, unable to move, stripped from my top, people making fun of me that normally stay well away from me and...
Totally turned on by it.
Maybe "mad woman" is the title I deserve most?
Love,
Kyla
Yesssss! Our dungeon, long time not used in any way, got some sort of re-introduction.
But... Let's start at the beginning!
Miss teased me yesterday in an evil way by provoking me with her charms while her girl was all dressed up. Of course that girl was stubborn enough not to let herself be provoked but then a little chase followed, first me chasing Miss, then the other way around. I bet if there would have been people around, they would have been standing there with their jaws dropping as we chased over the whole island and we were totally differently dressed to say the least.
Of course Miss was too slow for her girl and decided that flying might help her big time to catch her. Well, that trick is known by her girl too so I flew up high in the air. Soon a familiar shape came up there and I couldn't resist entering our dungeon. After a short IM with Mistress she was tp-ed in and teasing ended.
Well, erhm ended... Five minutes later I was strapped naked in an uncomfortable position to the wall and left there for a while. When Miss returned, my arms were totally numb and blood not flowing freely anymore. Repositioning me to the wall rack only caused great discomfort as blood started flowing in my arms again and you don't know how to position yourself how to get away from the excruciating pain.
What followed is none of the business of you accidental bypassers of my diary. Let's suffice to say that it was scary, painful, exciting and helpless for me. Mistress made sure her girl had absolutely no control over herself at all. It was a total turn on! Afterwards we rested in each other's arms and felt very comfortable with each other about our scene. Gee, I can still feel my submission raging through me.
I talked about it with Miss in the past that we could just as well give up on the dungeon as we never used it anymore anyway. Since we are living in our tent it has not been used as I took the lift to the dungeon off and never placed it back. Somehow we didn't miss it as it is clear enough between Miss and I how we stand towards each other. On the other hand... After this scene I'm already looking forward to he next time and I will make sure the ride up to the dungeon will be placed very visible this time!
Miss and I are so often together doing all kinda things and are such a close friends that there is simply no time to truly miss something. The most important to us is that we enjoy spending time together in whatever way possible. After a scene like yesterday I wonder though if we should sometimes just take time to do something different than we do usually. I can only say that I totally loved this. Does it mean I want this on a daily base? Certainly not! Waiting for something like this is as much fun as actually doing it. But maybe we can do it just a bit more often than we have done in the past.
Love,
Kyla
It's been a while that I wrote in my diary and it's really time to do so again as there are enough things happening lately.
Miss and I are still going strong. I'm hardly ever corrected these days and don't try to push her to do so. In general it is simply bliss to be hers and I'm sure she feels the same about me. Lately we have been spending more and more time together and that's what I want to talk about.
My online time is easier to manage as Mistress's for not having a RL partner. Mistress tries what she can to spend as much time with me as possible. Something I truly love and up to this point took as much as I could. Lately I notice Mistress having problems though with her priorities when it comes to SL compared to RL.
Miss spends almost more time with me than with her own family. If not being able to make an appointment with me because of RL then that RL suffers under it. Addiction? Perhaps! More likely is it that the love she feels for me is simply so much she is blinded by it to a degree (as I am too BTW... this goes two ways).
BUT... If you have a family IRL then it should never suffer for SL. Sure, spend time with me but do not forget the other side. If there truly would have to be made a choice between RL and SL then RL should win.
I realise that by writing this down here, I basically tell Miss to push me aside a bit. On the other hand... If she won't do it then eventually I might lose her altogether when her RL partner forces her to make a choice. And to be honest, he has oldest rights and would stand in his full right if he did.
I love Mistress totally but as long as there is a RL relationship for her, I have no right to demand and maybe even not the right to take all the time she offers me (that will be hard for me not to do). I'm not telling Mistress what to do or not here. Just asking her to be careful so we will not lose each other.
Love,
Kyla
