Kyla's Diary

19:30...
Kyla: Welcome back Miss, i love You
Miss: Thank you sunshine, I love you too
Miss: I think I will make myself some coffee first (just kidding)
Kyla giggles
Miss: I want to go and explore a nice sim I visited yesterday when you were not there.
Kyla gulps as she knows by now what Miss' ideas of nice sims can be.

As expected, we end up in a sim with all kinds of wicked bondage devices. Even if I pretended to be afraid. In reality it is a turn on when Miss takes me there. Soon Miss sees a device that draws her attention.

20:00...
Miss: take place dear, I will fetch myself a cup of coffee in the meantime.
Kyla trembles slightly as she eyes the device, wondering what it does and how Miss will perhaps tie her up.

After some fun play (yes, that can be harsh too), we decide to explore a little further. Playful as I am, I see another device that catches my attention. Without even asking I jump up on it and before I know it, blood is gushing from my belly as a large hook is driven through me. Strangely enough, I keep struggling instead of dying (don't you just love SL?).

20:45...
Miss: Kyla, get off of that thing, I don't want to see something like that. It's disgusting
Kyla: But, it's just a funny thing, even if a little morbid.
Miss: If you want to keep hanging there, go ahead. I'm gone.
Kyla: Wait for me Miss, I'm coming with You.
Miss: Don't ever do that again!

Even if it was meant as fun and Miss herself can be quite harsh on her girl herself sometimes, seeing me like that obviously triggers something inside her. I might make fun of it but reality is that I love her feelings behind it. I apologize again and promise her not to do it again..... today.

Time to prepare for the last part of the evening. Either we spend it at home or once in a while we go and dance in one of our favourite places. This evening we decide to dance and soon we're talking relaxed while we do so.

Somehow this moment of the day is as well the sweetest as the saddest. We know we will be separated again soon. But it is always in a perfectly relaxed way and a promise of tomorrow.

We never part in anger and even if we might not agree with each other sometimes, this is not the moment to discuss it further. Instead we respect and love each other way too much for that and forget what might be brought up again tomorrow. Sleeping over it, often smooths everything so that tomorrow we don't even remember what was so important to us today.

21:30...
Miss: Time to go sleep love, I'm tired. We will meet tomorrow?
Kyla: I will be there Miss, sleep well and see You then
Miss waves
Kyla blows You a sweet kiss

Then a slightly empty feeling remains after we both left. A feeling of not being complete without her.

This concludes just an average day. It was fun writing it.

Love,
Kyla

1. I can tie her up;
   In theory that would be possible but I'm not quite ready to have my butt striped because I tried.


2. Let Miss prepare her cup of coffee and use the time to make myself useful as well.
   This option works best for me somehow ;)

In the past I have been posting often after something bad happened or at least something important. Now It might look like that we fight all the time. This is far from the truth and therefore now an entry on a way lighter note.

The following is not necessarily an actual morning but could have been. It describes how we might spend our time at any given day that we are free together.

9:25...
Kyla: Good morning Miss
Miss: Good morning sunshine
Kyla: You are awake early today, I have been up only 4 hours myself.
Miss: I will be back in a few minutes, I need coffee first.

Kisses and cuddles will follow, we ask how we spent the night (with every dirty detail of course ;) and then decide what we will do the rest of the day. First we decide to go shopping for clothes...

10:30...
Kyla: No, i think those other silks are still better.
Miss sighs but then suddenly beams: "Hey there's a skin shop here too!"
Kyla growls and looks angrily at Miss
Miss giggles and pulls her girl in for a loving kiss.
Kyla purrs softly as she sensually lingers her lips on Miss's
Miss: brb, I need some coffee.

Miss is shortly afk again and I take the time to make a small nature break myself. Miss likes my honest opinion about clothing and about anything we go shopping for really (she is a real skin addict). Of course she is at times disappointed when I have a different view on things but that is even part of the fun for both.

Sometimes we go and don't buy anything at all but still have fun in trying to find the best things and tell each other why or why not for a specific item. Suppose we come home with some demo skins from somewhere. Then the next might happen:

12:30...
Miss: Do you like this one?
Kyla: Waiting for it to be loaded
Miss: Sure sunshine, your connection is always so bad
Kyla sticks her tongue out at You
Miss just looks at you
Kyla lowers her eyes and whispers softly "I'm sorry Miss"
Miss: be careful now my girl
Kyla: Yes Miss

then

Kyla: Oh Yes! I like this skin but still think Your old skin is better
Miss: Yes, you always want me to walk in old skins.
Kyla bites her tongue as to prevent herself from giving an answer that would really get her into problems
Miss: Love, it's time for lunch. I will be back in a while
Kyla: Then i will go and play some in KoS if that's OK?

It might look disrespectful by sticking out my tongue like that. It's more of a game we both play though. Miss allows me to do things like that but sometimes thinks it to be enough. And even then she is not really mad but will simply tell me to stop. Of course it might be a good reason for some more wicked fun later too of course. But this time it ended all kind and sweet.

We separate after some sweet kisses and promise to see each other in maybe an hour from now.

This is something that might happen on any given morning. Will be continued with: "And now a less lazy afternoon"

Love,
Kyla

It happened again... Uppity me making the same mistake and colliding with Mistress on it. She obviously had enough of it this time and decided for a punishment that would truly touch me.

And touching me it did. Even if the actual punishment never took place. Mistress basically wanted me to find someone else to serve for 24 hours and to whom I should be totally compliant.

I was stunned! Then again, what should I have expected then? Mistress might be caring and loving, she's not a fool. No, that "honour" was totally mine.

After feeling lonely, scared and totally intimidated by just the thought for more than an hour, I only saw one way out and that was to make myself as small as possible and humbly beg for Mistress to show her girl mercy.

It was given even if not deserved and didn't feel like an accomplishment really. No glorious feelings that I managed to get away from my punishment. Instead I felt myself more humbled by and submissive towards Mistress than ever before. I challenged her, she called my bluff and challenged me in return. I surely did not know how to counter that anymore.

It kept haunting me till the next moment I saw her and I felt something inside me shifting, more understanding to what being submissive is. It scares the hell out of me and yet, I know this is what I was searching for. This is what I feel I need to explore deeper.

It's almost 2 days ago this happened and here I am. Still feeling the same and still in a mindset that I have not experienced before. Feeling as if my pleasure is not as important anymore. Or more accurately... feeling that I can have my pleasure just from a praise of Mistress, a soft touch. by being pleasing in return.

Of course I know I will make mistakes again. Somehow I think this time I learned more than previous times though. I feel that this time the realisation of my position and what I'm actually craving for kicked in way deeper than ever before.

Love,
Kyla