The past week was more relaxing than usual. Miss is often tired in the evenings and does not need a girl right now that is overly naughty and active.
So instead we have been shopping, once in a while been running around in our favourite sim and had a photo shoot that comprised two evenings of hopping from one pose to the other: One day at home and a second day in the photo studio. The photo shoot was meant as a surprise to Miss: A sort of official collection of photo's of the two of us that will always be a memory to all the good times we have had and hope to get in the future.
I've been in a somewhat nostalgic mood lately, longing for something that slowly seems to slip from my grip but that I can not lay my finger on what it is. Miss and I love each other as much as ever and I feel extremely comfortable in her arms or to hold her in mine. Maybe it is the reaction on a fairly turbulent period we had before this (see my previous entries). Add to that a very turbulent period for Miss' IRL and you have potential disaster. That we do not get that is because we are extremely cautious with each other, which shows to me we are always fighting and working on our relationship.
I spend less time online than in the past and plan more on the times Miss is there. That means less boredom when I'm online as I do not have to wait doing something to kill time. I even proposed Miss to go somewhere else together with me if she was bored of SL. I would give up SL then though as I do not wish to be active on more than one terrain. As long as I can be together with Miss, it is enough for me. Every evening again, I look forward to being with her (and then she calls me addictive ☺)
Ohhh I stopped my "job" in a sim we are often in. Therefore I think to have more time to write entries here: Entries that are always appreciated by Miss.
Love,
Kyla
Here a follow up to an entry I made earlier.
In that entry I described how much of a turn-on it is to me to be at Miss' mercy and came to the conclusion that it might be good to do other things once in a while. Things done together, without others disturbing us with it.
The last few weeks have been really lousy on that aspect. It seems as if we're always among others and therefore give each other less attention than before. That doesn't mean we love each other any less. That feeling never fades. But the longing to be at times just be together or if we are in public, to role-play together instead of with others, remains.
In general I have nice role-play in the sim we are in together. I'm not sure if Miss' has the same but in any case: What would be "nice" with the best role-players becomes "a total turn-on" if done together with Miss.
Sure, our time is less than before but we seem to waste a lot of time with less relevant things when we are together instead of concentrate on each other. The feeling I have with it is that from the 4 hours/day we spent before, we were 50% of the time only concentrating on each other. And from the 1.5 hours we are together these days, maybe half an hour is spent like that.
I can't help thinking that at times our priorities, when we are together, could be way better. If we go exploring then it is not necessary to spend half an hour dressing up and then come to the conclusion that the sim we are in is nearly empty so nobody sees us in the first place. This is a very recent example where we had a total of 90 minutes together where the first half hour was totally wasted.
This goes 2 ways and we should simply tell that to each other. At times Miss seems to have strange priorities in my eyes. At other times I have them in Miss' eyes. If the goal of the evening is to spend time role-playing then let's dress up and role-play. If the goal is to dance together then let's quickly find a place and go. If it is to spend time together looking at each others inventory then let's stand on the pose-stand and try.
In general: "Let's pick something to do... and DO it".
Love,
Kyla
A long time (too long) since I wrote something in my diary and I should really make up for that! Having said that... is there nothing to write about? Well sure, more than enough actually.
Miss and I are still going strong. Love is not fading at all and we're as frustrated as ever of not being able to see each other more and more. The shorter time we have together though, is filled up with enough fun so I will not be bored in a long time.
After some difficulties with Miss not always being able to plan her time right, it goes better now. We have an agreement now, that works well. Like this week... She has to work long hours so I simply login later too. Good to spend time with my daughter and Miss does not have to feel the need to hurry to get behind her PC after a hard day's work.
At times I'm being frustrated about waiting a long time for nothing. But even that has become better now by simply planning not too tight anymore and the agreement that if it takes longer, we will try to let the other know in a small email or quick login.
Longing for Miss is no less than before, even more perhaps. But... the times we are together are nice and sweet. Not too many deep discussions, no taking our frustrations out on each other. Like this, I can go on for a long time my Miss.
Love,
Kyla
